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Ember

by Woozles

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    Starting 11/10 until forever, I'm going to donate all the proceeds from this album to the Nature Conservancy. I'm a hippie at heart. The world is a beautiful place and I don't want it to die because of Trump. Sending love.


    If you download this album you'll also get a pdf booklet of poems, lyrics, and short stories that my ex-girlfriend Sabrina Cofer wrote about our relationship. A lot of times you only see breakup albums from one side, so we wanted to make sure you saw both with this release in the hopes that it might help you in your own relationships, or when coping with the loss of one. With the download you also get an unreleased demo that is probably the only hopeful song I've ever written. Please download it though because it's free! Why not, right? ... more
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1.
Yearning 02:40
I'm exhausted from that game First you kissed me then we played For months on end it felt the same I'm still waiting for a change I checked my smile at the door Of New Year's coming or before The wit is coming to an end Too tired to even play pretend All these years I've felt this way A hint of yearning with a dash of pain I used to dream my days away But I can't dream now, at any stage I'm just restless and confused Sometimes I want to be abused My body's slowly sawn in two One for me and one for you Every day I feel sublime Which sounds good as long as it rhymes Fuck these mountains I can't climb I'll just fall back into line
2.
Nothing I can say Seems to rip away At the gnarled bark Of your self-loathing I can't explain it all The galaxies in your eyes That make me lose my way In the infinity of you. The way you etch Our names into my hand With your soft touch And death's conviction. How if your iron voice Softened with innocence Was the only sound in my ears Joy would put me in a stranglehold. I want a sun soaked field I'd love an ocean view though Maybe some time to heal But nothing without you I may have broken a promise Or two too many for you To have faith in my words But it's all true Honey do you see the fear? I think the love was laced With something too strong We didn't bargain for So please darling lay here And haul this wreck up Your arms are the only pillow That I'll ever need. I can't do without your reality And the way cynicism Flies like a dagger dripping blood Of the whole fucking world. I've never had a sweet tooth So I need your special brand Of bitters Drunk and burnt out in your soul. I want a sun soaked field I'd love an ocean view though Maybe some time to heal But nothing without you I may have broken a promise Or two too many for you To have faith in my words But it's all true
3.
My face is still red Back of the hand Never saw it coming Now I don’t watch you go If only Jesus was real He still wouldn’t save me Safety blade isn’t safe today Pain reminds me of you Trail of my blood in the snow That’s how I want to go All the way from California To the place I call home Stared at the moonlight Burn memories from both ends I’l send you the ashes In a jar so you’ll know Keep it on the shelf With your photos of us To remind yourself Who really held the match Try not to check my phone No notifications Know it doesn’t matter But fuck 'em all the same Trail of my blood in the snow That’s how I want to go All the way from California To the place I call home
4.
Aggression 02:47
Your aggression isn’t so passive I guess I deserve the acid I’ll ignore it and you’ll flare up Keep it coming, like the sun Girl your knives are dull as my love Go ahead, cut at the same old hole Got super glue right here It’ll heal the wounds as you sear I’ve moved on, my friend I hope you can too Until then I’ll let you try To open my eyes with your cries Emotions can’t show their bruises Otherwise mine would be black and blue Of course it’s my fault too I was more than just a nuisance Your bandaids fall right off my skin Can’t make it better anymore Oh they’ll heal with time though Rest easy, I’ll always have scars I’ve moved on, my friend I hope you can too Until then I’ll let you try To open my eyes with your cries I’ve moved on, my friend I hope you can too Until then I’ll let you try To open my eyes with your cries
5.
See you cry My eyes are dry But it’s alright Wave goodbye As I sigh But it’s alrighighighight It’s all right! Friend of mine Why’d you lie? But it’s alright Wave goodbye As I sigh But it’s alrighighighight It’s all right! Through the pines Walked in lines But’s it’s alright Wave goodbye As I sigh But it’s alrighighighight It’s all right! I did my crime Fuck your time But it’s alright Wave goodbye As I sigh But it’s alrighighighight It’s all right
6.
Conjugation 02:05
Oh I feel The way you wish I did about you It can't be real My skeletons fall out of the closet into Black and blue and green My lungs scream just the way she taught them to All for you The holes on my lips where the thread went through I tried to fly But this isn't a children's story anymore We tried to hide What we knew we couldn't say I loved her then I loved you then I love you now It's all just conjugation anyway
7.
Conclusions 03:36
Put on clothes to pretend I'm human Shower for an hour and jump to conclusions Drenched in sweat, but I haven't been moving The chill I have is a kind you don't want to know Your breath on my face keeps me awake Everything burns but your touch Sink into a mattress with quicksand dreams Try to claw my way out but just silently scream I hurt only when I'm in slow motion The lines blur in watercolor confusion Mind drowns in light with helpless retribution The world was too bright to leave any bruises Your breath on my face keeps me awake Everything burns but your touch Sink into a mattress with quicksand dreams Try to claw my way out but just silently scream I'm too rung out to keep you warm I'm too spaced out to be your home I'm not high, just tired and uninspired I'm hoping that you stay, please fucking stay I'm too rung out to keep you warm I'm too spaced out to be your home I'm not high, just tired and uninspired I'm hoping that you stay, please fucking stay
8.
Don't make me go Just leave me here alone I'll have nothing to show Just like you all expect It's a fucking disease I'm sorry if I come off mean But if you were bleeding inside Would I ask why you don't smile? When I touch my dreams They don't smile like I expect Just run away again They were all in my head, anyway Don't want to be a debbie downer I just want to feel better I can't sleep and I don't drink So I'm the life of the parties I hate complaining Because I've got no reason Except what my mind Twists like scalding metal Obsess over the memories Repress the ones that scarred me The paths I didn’t go down How’d that message change me? When I touch my dream She doesn’t smile like I expect Just run away again She was all in my head, anyway Don't want to be a debbie downer I just want to feel better I can't sleep and I don't drink So I'm the life of the parties
9.
Marrow 02:31
Her smile under an icy tree Paths in fog where three ways meet A humble liar gets off on deceit "You're the one" he says quietly Pluck the flower from the ground Pull the petals and let it drown The trees are rotting the birds don't sing Fade along with the summer breeze Cut me to the bone You know I like the marrow Try to make me moan While wearing a golden halo The blood spells out our destiny An ancient game of tarot Laughing through the hollow scene We cut our love too narrow Leave a lily on her bed In memory of the ones who tried Until the soft steps sound again Another brutal new sunrise Blunt force trauma killed the love When I hit her with those words She fell back on the broken dove That crumpled with our dreams Cut me to the bone You know I like the marrow Pull me from my home And shoot me with your arrow The blood spells out our destiny In the poison that makes me stagger Laughing through the hollow scene You loved me like an adder
10.
The Puzzle 02:13
One day I tried to move The puzzle we made, carefully But it slipped and fell, clumsy me And jigsawed across the floor I didn’t want to drop it Don’t want to be your savior Just want to be your friend I once read we can only save ourselves It’s nice right now, in between The anxiety is keeping me up But it has for the past four years So it’s someone I hold dear She’s pressed against me now Warmer with her than ever with you Our lips are pressed together now Softer with her than ever with you I didn’t want to drop it But now I’ll make a new puzzle
11.
Oars 03:16
You're the love I've come to know Please don't let us let this go Hold my hands and whisper words Touch each other, broken birds Sure I'm on the other shore I want you and nothing more Made a pact that I'll see through These days it all rhymes with you Rowed onto your golden coast Oars break when they're needed most Left you standing on your own Find you'd rather be alone Sure I'm on the other shore I want you and nothing more Made a pact that I'll see through These days it all rhymes with you Drive with me 2 AM fantasy Backroads lead Intertwining fingers Smile at me Like you did in the sun Lost in dreams As long as you're here now Sure I'm on the other shore I want you and nothing more Made a pact that I'll see through These days it all rhymes with you
12.
Ember 02:32
Right before This ember turns to ash Look in my eyes Tell me to walk on broken glass Hold me close Break my bones with memories Empty hands Chase me down the corridor Ghost I've seen Slide across the icy ground Like a noose Welcomed with the breeze Close your eyes See me fade from view Hold my hands Let them slip from you Paths in fog Lead me to the dark

about

There's no doubt that Ember is a breakup album. I wrote all of these songs during and after a two year relationship of mine. Obviously it's a subject that's been covered millions of times, but the romantic part of me feels like each person's heartbreak is different in its own way. More than anything this album was me trying to cope and to sort out a lot of conflicting feelings. I basically locked myself in a basement for a month to make this. It's not perfect by any means. The recording and production aren't professional at all, but it's the most honest album I think I could make.

I definitely encourage you to download the album because you'll also get to download a book of poems, lyrics, and short stories that my ex girlfriend wrote during and after our relationship. Usually with a breakup album you only get to hear one side of the story, but I wanted to make sure that you have the chance to hear both sides. Essentially altogether if you dig into it you get a complete picture of the crumbling of a romantic relationship. I just hope it helps you out in your own relationships so maybe you don't make the same mistakes as us, or helps you to cope with a relationship you might be missing.

This is an album with meanings that keep evolving for me the more I play the songs. I'm not sure I knew exactly how accurate they were until now when I can look back since the dust has settled. In the end I hope for the few people that will actually take the time to dig through all of her and my material along with the music videos that you might be able to pull something relatable out. I'm still figuring things out. I still feel like I'm in love with everyone at once. I'm glad I could share both the good and terrible parts of me with you. As always I'm here for you even if you're a stranger.

Much, much love,
-Conor (Woozles)

credits

released May 27, 2016

All instruments played by Conor Ryan
Vocals on track 12 by Lillian Burns-Merrill
Written, recorded, mixed, and mastered by Conor Ryan

Special thanks to Sabrina Cofer, my parents, Ryan Rightmire, Triston Girardin, Nate DiDomizio, Lillian Burns-Merrill, Dead Rover, Matthew Cassillo, and everyone else who listened to this album when I pestered them to and who helped me along the way. <3

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