Ember

by Woozles

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    Starting 11/10 until forever, I'm going to donate all the proceeds from this album to the Nature Conservancy. I'm a hippie at heart. The world is a beautiful place and I don't want it to die because of Trump. Sending love.
    If you download this album you'll also get a pdf booklet of poems, lyrics, and short stories that my ex-girlfriend Sabrina Cofer wrote about our relationship. A lot of times you only see breakup albums from one side, so we wanted to make sure you saw both with this release in the hopes that it might help you in your own relationships, or when coping with the loss of one. With the download you also get an unreleased demo that is probably the only hopeful song I've ever written. Please download it though because it's free! Why not, right?

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about

There's no doubt that Ember is a breakup album. I wrote all of these songs during and after a two year relationship of mine. Obviously it's a subject that's been covered millions of times, but the romantic part of me feels like each person's heartbreak is different in its own way. More than anything this album was me trying to cope and to sort out a lot of conflicting feelings. I basically locked myself in a basement for a month to make this. It's not perfect by any means. The recording and production aren't professional at all, but it's the most honest album I think I could make.

I definitely encourage you to download the album because you'll also get to download a book of poems, lyrics, and short stories that my ex girlfriend wrote during and after our relationship. Usually with a breakup album you only get to hear one side of the story, but I wanted to make sure that you have the chance to hear both sides. Essentially altogether if you dig into it you get a complete picture of the crumbling of a romantic relationship. I just hope it helps you out in your own relationships so maybe you don't make the same mistakes as us, or helps you to cope with a relationship you might be missing.

This is an album with meanings that keep evolving for me the more I play the songs. I'm not sure I knew exactly how accurate they were until now when I can look back since the dust has settled. In the end I hope for the few people that will actually take the time to dig through all of her and my material along with the music videos that you might be able to pull something relatable out. I'm still figuring things out. I still feel like I'm in love with everyone at once. I'm glad I could share both the good and terrible parts of me with you. As always I'm here for you even if you're a stranger.

Much, much love,
-Conor (Woozles)

credits

released May 27, 2016

All instruments played by Conor Ryan
Vocals on track 12 by Lillian Burns-Merrill
Written, recorded, mixed, and mastered by Conor Ryan

Special thanks to Sabrina Cofer, my parents, Ryan Rightmire, Triston Girardin, Nate DiDomizio, Lillian Burns-Merrill, Dead Rover, Matthew Cassillo, and everyone else who listened to this album when I pestered them to and who helped me along the way. <3

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Track Name: Yearning
I'm exhausted from that game
First you kissed me then we played
For months on end it felt the same
I'm still waiting for a change

I checked my smile at the door
Of New Year's coming or before
The wit is coming to an end
Too tired to even play pretend

All these years I've felt this way
A hint of yearning with a dash of pain
I used to dream my days away
But I can't dream now, at any stage

I'm just restless and confused
Sometimes I want to be abused
My body's slowly sawn in two
One for me and one for you

Every day I feel sublime
Which sounds good as long as it rhymes
Fuck these mountains I can't climb
I'll just fall back into line
Track Name: Anniversary Song
Nothing I can say
Seems to rip away
At the gnarled bark
Of your self-loathing

I can't explain it all
The galaxies in your eyes
That make me lose my way
In the infinity of you.

The way you etch
Our names into my hand
With your soft touch
And death's conviction.

How if your iron voice
Softened with innocence
Was the only sound in my ears
Joy would put me in a stranglehold.

I want a sun soaked field
I'd love an ocean view though
Maybe some time to heal
But nothing without you
I may have broken a promise
Or two too many for you
To have faith in my words
But it's all true

Honey do you see the fear?
I think the love was laced
With something too strong
We didn't bargain for

So please darling lay here
And haul this wreck up
Your arms are the only pillow
That I'll ever need.

I can't do without your reality
And the way cynicism
Flies like a dagger dripping blood
Of the whole fucking world.

I've never had a sweet tooth
So I need your special brand
Of bitters
Drunk and burnt out in your soul.

I want a sun soaked field
I'd love an ocean view though
Maybe some time to heal
But nothing without you
I may have broken a promise
Or two too many for you
To have faith in my words
But it's all true
Track Name: Trail of My Blood
My face is still red
Back of the hand
Never saw it coming

Now I don’t watch you go
If only Jesus was real
He still wouldn’t save me

Safety blade isn’t safe today
Pain reminds me of you

Trail of my blood in the snow
That’s how I want to go
All the way from California
To the place I call home

Stared at the moonlight
Burn memories from both ends
I’l send you the ashes
In a jar so you’ll know

Keep it on the shelf
With your photos of us
To remind yourself
Who really held the match

Try not to check my phone
No notifications
Know it doesn’t matter
But fuck 'em all the same

Trail of my blood in the snow
That’s how I want to go
All the way from California
To the place I call home
Track Name: Aggression
Your aggression isn’t so passive
I guess I deserve the acid
I’ll ignore it and you’ll flare up
Keep it coming, like the sun

Girl your knives are dull as my love
Go ahead, cut at the same old hole
Got super glue right here
It’ll heal the wounds as you sear

I’ve moved on, my friend
I hope you can too
Until then I’ll let you try
To open my eyes with your cries

Emotions can’t show their bruises
Otherwise mine would be black and blue
Of course it’s my fault too
I was more than just a nuisance

Your bandaids fall right off my skin
Can’t make it better anymore
Oh they’ll heal with time though
Rest easy, I’ll always have scars

I’ve moved on, my friend
I hope you can too
Until then I’ll let you try
To open my eyes with your cries

I’ve moved on, my friend
I hope you can too
Until then I’ll let you try
To open my eyes with your cries
Track Name: It's All Right (Alright)
See you cry
My eyes are dry
But it’s alright

Wave goodbye
As I sigh
But it’s alrighighighight
It’s all right!

Friend of mine
Why’d you lie?
But it’s alright

Wave goodbye
As I sigh
But it’s alrighighighight
It’s all right!

Through the pines
Walked in lines
But’s it’s alright

Wave goodbye
As I sigh
But it’s alrighighighight
It’s all right!

I did my crime
Fuck your time
But it’s alright

Wave goodbye
As I sigh
But it’s alrighighighight
It’s all right
Track Name: Conjugation
Oh I feel
The way you wish I did about you
It can't be real
My skeletons fall out of the closet into

Black and blue and green
My lungs scream just the way she taught them to
All for you
The holes on my lips where the thread went through

I tried to fly
But this isn't a children's story anymore
We tried to hide
What we knew we couldn't say

I loved her then
I loved you then
I love you now
It's all just conjugation anyway
Track Name: Conclusions
Put on clothes to pretend I'm human
Shower for an hour and jump to conclusions
Drenched in sweat, but I haven't been moving
The chill I have is a kind you don't want to know

Your breath on my face keeps me awake
Everything burns but your touch
Sink into a mattress with quicksand dreams
Try to claw my way out but just silently scream

I hurt only when I'm in slow motion
The lines blur in watercolor confusion
Mind drowns in light with helpless retribution
The world was too bright to leave any bruises

Your breath on my face keeps me awake
Everything burns but your touch
Sink into a mattress with quicksand dreams
Try to claw my way out but just silently scream

I'm too rung out to keep you warm
I'm too spaced out to be your home
I'm not high, just tired and uninspired
I'm hoping that you stay, please fucking stay

I'm too rung out to keep you warm
I'm too spaced out to be your home
I'm not high, just tired and uninspired
I'm hoping that you stay, please fucking stay
Track Name: How are You? Okay.
Don't make me go
Just leave me here alone
I'll have nothing to show
Just like you all expect

It's a fucking disease
I'm sorry if I come off mean
But if you were bleeding inside
Would I ask why you don't smile?

When I touch my dreams
They don't smile like I expect
Just run away again
They were all in my head, anyway

Don't want to be a debbie downer
I just want to feel better
I can't sleep and I don't drink
So I'm the life of the parties

I hate complaining
Because I've got no reason
Except what my mind
Twists like scalding metal

Obsess over the memories
Repress the ones that scarred me
The paths I didn’t go down
How’d that message change me?

When I touch my dream
She doesn’t smile like I expect
Just run away again
She was all in my head, anyway

Don't want to be a debbie downer
I just want to feel better
I can't sleep and I don't drink
So I'm the life of the parties
Track Name: Marrow
Her smile under an icy tree
Paths in fog where three ways meet
A humble liar gets off on deceit
"You're the one" he says quietly

Pluck the flower from the ground
Pull the petals and let it drown
The trees are rotting the birds don't sing
Fade along with the summer breeze

Cut me to the bone
You know I like the marrow
Try to make me moan
While wearing a golden halo
The blood spells out our destiny
An ancient game of tarot
Laughing through the hollow scene
We cut our love too narrow

Leave a lily on her bed
In memory of the ones who tried
Until the soft steps sound again
Another brutal new sunrise

Blunt force trauma killed the love
When I hit her with those words
She fell back on the broken dove
That crumpled with our dreams

Cut me to the bone
You know I like the marrow
Pull me from my home
And shoot me with your arrow
The blood spells out our destiny
In the poison that makes me stagger
Laughing through the hollow scene
You loved me like an adder
Track Name: The Puzzle
One day I tried to move
The puzzle we made, carefully
But it slipped and fell, clumsy me
And jigsawed across the floor

I didn’t want to drop it
Don’t want to be your savior
Just want to be your friend
I once read we can only save ourselves

It’s nice right now, in between
The anxiety is keeping me up
But it has for the past four years
So it’s someone I hold dear

She’s pressed against me now
Warmer with her than ever with you
Our lips are pressed together now
Softer with her than ever with you

I didn’t want to drop it
But now I’ll make a new puzzle
Track Name: Oars
You're the love I've come to know
Please don't let us let this go
Hold my hands and whisper words
Touch each other, broken birds

Sure I'm on the other shore
I want you and nothing more
Made a pact that I'll see through
These days it all rhymes with you

Rowed onto your golden coast
Oars break when they're needed most
Left you standing on your own
Find you'd rather be alone

Sure I'm on the other shore
I want you and nothing more
Made a pact that I'll see through
These days it all rhymes with you

Drive with me
2 AM fantasy
Backroads lead
Intertwining fingers

Smile at me
Like you did in the sun
Lost in dreams
As long as you're here now

Sure I'm on the other shore
I want you and nothing more
Made a pact that I'll see through
These days it all rhymes with you
Track Name: Ember
Right before
This ember turns to ash
Look in my eyes
Tell me to walk on broken glass

Hold me close
Break my bones with memories
Empty hands
Chase me down the corridor

Ghost I've seen
Slide across the icy ground
Like a noose
Welcomed with the breeze

Close your eyes
See me fade from view
Hold my hands
Let them slip from you

Paths in fog
Lead me to the dark